Hi. My name is Nora, I’m 23 years old and I am a freakin’ machine. Yup, that’s right. I just called myself a machine.
Some people might call me arrogant, conceited or even narcissistic.
I call it self-confidence, pride and self-love.
Three words, I used to dream of, but would never have dared to associate with myself. I envied the people who were able to stand up for themselves, look into a mirror and smile, who just did what they felt like doing without overthinking or being afraid of the consequences their actions might have. The people, who just lived their lives to the fullest instead of standing in their own way.
There was a time, at which I thought I would never reach a point in life where I would be confident of who I am instead of always focusing on my flaws, where I would be proud of what I achieved instead of counting the things I still haven’t finished yet, where I would truly love and respect myself instead of always depending on the love and recognition from others.
Don’t ask me why I felt these insecurities. I don’t know and it simply doesn’t matter now.
I’ve always been the person who cared about others, helped them and was liked by many. So why did I struggle so much? What has changed in comparison to today?
The answer is short, but the very opposite of simple: I changed.
How do you just happen to change your life in only a couple of weeks? I have no clue, but it happened. My life’s journey from teenager-age onwards was always pretty much the same: I had my ups and my downs, but in summary I was never fully happy with myself and I did not feel balanced inside. I had goals in life and I was eager to reach them. I was successful in many ways. I was just not able to see it. Every accomplishment was followed by a new goal and a new task, instead of appreciation and praise. I didn’t understand the importance of self-praise, even though I always wished for more self-confidence.
Then I started UrbnTiger. At first it sounded like a fun time with friends and I liked the idea of trying out a new kind of sport – especially since I’ve been interested in Kick-Boxing for a while. What I didn’t know at that point was what kind of a huge impact this would have on my life. Together with my coach and 3 others, we started a six-week-challenge and after the first 2 weeks I was completely infected. I wanted to train all the time and I wanted to learn. I noticed changes in my body very quickly. But even more important, than what the workouts did to my body, was what the team spirit and weekly challenges did to my mind. They call it the mental sixpack and I was working on that every single day. It felt like a rush, like a drug, like something was loosened inside my brain. All of my potential suddenly became visible. I started to feel proud of myself and oh boy, how I loved feeling this way! Still stuck in my old habits, I thought to myself “Okay, this is awesome. But be careful. This is just another up-phase, get ready for the fall.”
You guys, the down-phase still hasn’t come.
Week by week, I got stronger – both mentally and physically – and when we reached our finals and earned our badges I could not have been happier! Then something amazing happened. Deep down I had hoped it would happen, but I didn’t dare imagine it becoming reality. I was asked to become a coach and I was added to the group “UT Coaches”. Wow. What a freakin’ honor this is!! I was scared to the bone. So much responsibility, so much to learn, so little time.
My coach showed me the definition of an UrbnTiger and I was able to agree with all the points, but one: self-confidence. I still didn’t believe in myself, even though I was able to see my progress of the past weeks. Taking over a whole group of people in only 4-5 weeks sounded utopistic.
But hey, I wanted to be part of this incredible movement and I wanted to give back at least a small part of the gift they gave me! So we began our lessons. We trained hard. We trained every day. I felt more alive than ever. Not only did my abs start to show, my mental sixpack was beginning to turn into steel as well. Aching muscles were part of our everyday life. I lived the slogan “Pain is weakness leaving the body”. I felt my weakness, insecurity, self-hatred and doubts leave my body and my soul. They made room for pride, confidence and self-love. From all around me I heard people saying I had a new appearance, my mother was overwhelmed by my inner strength, I almost didn’t recognize my thoughts anymore. I had a whole new perspective on life.
I felt ready.
Ready to be coach.
Ready to fight.
Ready to live.
I can’t thank UrbnTiger enough for showing me the right way. And that’s what they – no. That’s what we do: We point you into the right direction. But you and you alone lead the way to your own personal glory. There is so much potential inside of every single one of you, you just have to allow yourself to take that big step outside of your comfort zone and let it happen. I promise, it will be worth it and you will have the whole tribe behind your back with the fullest support.
Now, 3 months later, I look back at my thoughts from the beginning and I smile. I’m not sad or full of regret. I’m full of pride, that I stepped outside of my comfort zone.
I now believe, I would have been able to overcome my down-phases once and for all sooner or later, but without the support of UrbnTiger, it would have taken me so much more time, effort and energy.
I've gained so many new friends, who share my love for the sport and for the spirit behind UrbnTiger.
I inspire more and more people to join me on my ongoing journey.
I am doing a hell of a good job at it.
I am physically in the best shape of my life.
I am independent of what others think of me, so say what you like.
I am mentally fearless.
Like I said: I am a machine.
Do you get it now?
written on: 11.05.2019